pansin ko na dati pa.. darating at darating talaga ang oras / araw / panahon / pagkakataon na may (ano bang term dun?) napapalayo ako.. i'm good at pushing people away yata talaga.. pag next time may nagtanong sakin kung anong talent ko, eto na yata dapat ang sagot ko.. hindi ko naman sinasadya eh.. bat ko naman sasadyain? ayoko nga non eh.. ayoko nga ng goodbyes di ba? pero nangyayari pa din.. ang masama pa nito, eventually, parang ako lang ang nakakaalala nung nangyari.. parang keber lang talaga sila.. kekwestyunin ko naman ang sarili ko kung totoo nga ba yung falling out na yun.. syempre totoo.. tsk.. curse ba yun? sa iba kaya ganon din? o sakin lang talaga? iniisip ko na nga lang din kailangan siguro mangyari.. minsan it makes you stronger din naman.. in a hard, depressing way nga lang..

maghihintay na lang ako.. at maghihintay pa..

due to insistent public demand (and by public i mean one person haha), i will update this blog as often and as elaborate as i can.. ngi scary.. haha since i have months and months of thoughts (or lack thereof) to tell/share/rant/complain/ask/sigh about, i'm gonna try and bring back my blog's activity..

and to convince you that i'm really gonna do that, let me just say that i will omit my blog link in my friendster page right after this post.. :-) that's a good sign ha! if i wasn't planning on pouring my heart out (no not all out.. :-P) in here, i wouldn't worry about people reading this.. see, the lesser the better.. i know you know what i mean.. ;-)