October 31, 2006

doing what i do best part IV

yes, the fourth installment to the trilogy.. hehehe.. sounds familiar?


the cable provider has been kind, i just discovered two new channels (dunno if they are actually new or i just found it late).. crime suspense and etc.. there used to be etc but for some reasons they pulled it back then but now it's freakin' back and it's freakin' nice.. hehe i'm not going to talk about crime suspense coz i practically just scan through it.. etc has a lot of US tv shows, such as forces, forces hehehe.. sorry i got carried away.. seriously, there are friends, everwood (which i used to watch over rpn), the oc (which i don't actually watch but now i do to pass the precious time), queer eye for a straight guy, will and grace, uhm what else.. the episodes are not updated though, except for ET and the insider of course.. so now, if the tube's not on mtv, studio 23, axn, star world, or national geographic (really now?hehe), it's on etc.. speaking of tv shows, for the past weeks i was able to catch House over axn and i've come to a realization that the show's actually nice and Hugh Laurie too heehee.. last last episode had him and his love interest on a bedroom scene, and at the risk of sounding frisky, i think hugh's hot without his tshirt on..hehe when i told that to my sister, she gave me this what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about look.. i tried to look for a photo from that scene as proof, but i can't find any, so i guess you just have to take my word for it.. hehe.. how i wish they would have a re-run of the full seasons 1 & 2 and i will try and watch 'em.. hopefully.. and oh! another (this excites me a lot).. my father said he caught shannen doherty the other day on tv (yeah he knows his tv shows hehe) and thinks it was beverly hills 90210 that was shown.. is that exciting or exciting? gosh i wish it was (i'm wishing for a lot, aren't i) i used to watch it when i was in elementary, aside from doogie howser, md.. remember doogie howser? the teenage genius who was a doctor.. if i'm not mistaken it was the first tv show plotted based on medicine (even before ER) but i guess the idea of a teenage MD didn't survive the times.. trivia: doogie howser md was created by david e. kelley, uh huh the same guy who created the ever wonderful boston public (awww i so miss that show).. now i realize that maybe i've been watching these shows even before i watched ghost fighter and takeshi's castle..hehe


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October 27, 2006

on letting go..


"Leaving a love you've suddenly outgrown can be heartbreaking, but it also shows you're strong enough to walk away from a relationship that no longer makes you happy. Moving out of your comfort zone can be downright scary, but it also proves just how brave you are to take on the unknown. Stronger, braver, wiser.. You always do a little growing up everytime you do a little letting go.."



si Oprah daw ang nagbitiw nyan eh, pero hindi ako 100% sure.. pero kung sino man ang nagsabi nyan, may dating sya.. hehe.. galeng nung last line parang ang sarap maglet go..ehehe

when do you decide to let go? pag hindi mo na kaya? pag hirap na hirap ka na? pag sobrang sakit na? o pag ayaw mo na sya mahirapan? ako dun ako sa huli.. hindi na ako mageelaborate ng pananaw ko dyan kasi baka ma-delete ko tong blog ko ng di oras.. next time na lang siguro, i don't wanna sound like i'm letting go of something eh.. basta para sa akin, letting go is letting go of the feelings, not the person.. (nakanang! isa ngang up here! hehe)


John Mayer - Back To You WMA Lyrics
back to you, it always comes around back to you..


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October 22, 2006

hindi ako pikon, akala mo lang..

katatapos ko lang magsagot ng isang email forwarded na game.. there were a bunch of tagalog words then you translate them given the first letter of the english translation as a hint.. 50% ang nakuha ko, at hindi pa raw ako lubos na Pilipino.. may 200 words or so doon sa game, mula alpombra hanggang yeso, at sa totoo lang, challenging ang game na to kasi narealize kong meron este marami pala akong hindi alam na words.. nagtataka lang ako, sa dami ng words na na-encounter ko doon, bakit wala yung word na 'pikon'? ikaw, alam mo ba ang english sa pikon? kung oo, kumuha ka ng illustration board tapos ipukpok mo sa ulo mo.. la lang para lang masaya..

hindi ko alam kung halata, pero may pagkapikunin rin talaga ako.. pero hindi ibig sabihin na madali akong magalit.. uhmm pikon ako sa mga maliliit na bagay.. pag inuutusan ako, at paulit ulit, lalo akong hindi sumusunod.. pikon ako sa katamtamang bagay.. pag may ginagawa ako sa pc na sobrang kailangan ko at nagka-cram na ako tapos naghang ang pc o nawalan ng kuryente halos napapamura ako sa inis, lalo kung tantyado ko ang oras ko.. pikon ako sa malalaking bagay.. hindi na ako magbibigay ng example baka masapok ko lang ang sarili ko..

01-02.. fourth year high school ako noong mga panahong yon.. ang magaling kong teacher sa Values Education (wala na yatang subject na ganto ngayon, kawawa naman sila) ay merong pakulong activity.. maliban sa araw araw na pagpapakanta nya sa buong klase (energizer ang tawag don, gusto ko yun kasi pwede kaming kumanta ng mga peyborit songs namin noon tulad ng This I Promise You) nakaisip sya ng isang napaka-ingenious na idea para mabago ang mga negative attitudes namin at masabi na rin sa isa't isa ang gustong sabihin kung meron man (parang comments lang..ehehe).. at ayun na nga, nagulat na lang ako na nagiikot na ako sa room 25 na may intermediate sheet na nakascotch tape sa likod ko.. the directions were easy.. pumunta sa likod ng kaklase at isulat sa papel sa likod nya ang positibo at negatibong ugali nya para sayo.. naka-column yun kaya madali lang magsulat.. base sa isinulat ng kaklase, pwede ka ng magisip-isip kung may mga kaibigan ka pa bang babalikan tapos ng activity na yun.. joke!.. curious ka kung anong nakalagay sa papel ko? negatibo: moody, masakit magsalita, hindi ngumingiti, moody, dirediretso magsalita parang di nagiisip, moody, masakit magsalita minsan (nakuha pang magpalubag loob), lakas mambara, moody.. siguro may mga limang tao ang nagsabing moody ako, tatlo doon red ballpen pa ang ginamit, hindi ko alam kung sadya.. pero hindi naman ganong kasama ang tingin nila sakin.. may laman naman ang positive side ng papel ko tulad ng caring, thoughtful, at generous.. pfft!.. haha.. anong kinalaman ng kwentong to sa pagkapikon ko?! wala..

fourth year high school pa rin, mga bandang gantong time of the month.. malapit na rin ang halloween nun eh.. nasa main building kami ng eskwelahan naming may napakagandang reputasyon at nagtatakutan, madilim na kasi.. sabi nung classmate kong nakakakita at nakakaramdam daw ng kung ano-anong entity, may something daw sa room namin.. syempre tapang-tapangan kami, martsa sa room.. pag dating namin doon, nagtakutan na, at dahil sarado ang pinto kung ano-anong landian/katatakutan ang ginawa namin.. nangunguna ako sa pananakot.. pero ang walang hiya kong classmate, inunahan ako.. ako tuloy ang nabiktima.. ako ang tinakot.. natakot naman ako.. hehe.. at dahil hindi ako sanay sa ganon, sa ako ang sentro ng atensyon, at dahil ayoko ng ganon, na ako ang sentro ng atensyon, nabwiset ako.. hindi ko na matandaan kung anong sinabi ko para sabihan ako ng classmate ko ng, "magaling ka lang pag ikaw ang tumatawa eh pag ikaw na ang pinagtatawanan wala ka na.. pikon ka kasi eh.." hindi yun direct quote pero malapit lapit yun sa sinabi nya.. teka naalala ko na yung sinabi ko, "gago ka ah! square na lang sa labas o!" de, syempre joke yun.. napatahimik lang ako non, naisip ko kasi may point sya..

sabi ni Newton, "for every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction".. sabi ko naman, "fyi idts, omg btw brb wtf!" translation, "malamang may malaking kinalaman ang pagkapikunin ko sa iba ko pang attitude".. may nagsabi na rin kasi sakin, di ko matandaan kung si Pong Pagong o si Kiko Matsing (aw miss ko na sila), at kung totoo o guni-guni ko lang, na maaaring kaya daw ako malakas mambara at mabilis ang utak ko sa kapilosopohan eh dahil pikon ako.. ayaw ko raw ng nababara kaya nambabara ako.. ayaw ko raw sumagot ng diretso kaya namimilosopo ako.. mabilis daw ako makaisip ng lusot dahil ayaw ko raw magpatalo.. masyado raw akong masikreto kaya dinadaan ko sa joke at pagbago ng usapan.. at masyado raw akong maraming oras na pwedeng sayangin kaya ako nagttype ng gantong kahaba eh wala namang point.. sabi ko naman, "atras ka ng 100 times, abante ako!"


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magpopost ba naman ako ng walang kaagapay na MP3? syempre hindi, heto na sila!

Stacie Orrico - More To Life MP3 Lyrics
Nelly Furtado - I'm Like A Bird MP3 Lyrics
Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On Mp3 Lyrics
Matchbox 20 - If You're Gone MP3 Lyrics
Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had MP3 Lyrics


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October 20, 2006

Into you Like A Train

of all the GA episodes i've seen, last night's was different.. may something eh.. usually kasi namomove lang ako.. or natatouch sa lines at gestures, but that was it.. hindi ako sigurado kung anong meron kagabi at yun ang unang episode na iniyakan ko.. mind you, hindi lang teary-eyed kundi iyak talaga.. kasi naman bat ganon yung isang pasyente eh, sobrang strong nya.. kahit sobrang alam nya na mamamatay na sya.. ibang klase nga.. ewan ko rin kung vulnerable lang talaga ako kagabi or it was just too much weight for one hour.. it was useful though.. gusto ko tuloy mapanuod ulit para malaman ko kung yung episode lang ba talaga ang may epekto sa akin o meron pang iba.. kung ano yon, walang may alam..

my point is this whoever said that what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron.. because for most people i know not knowing is the worst feeling in the world..


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October 04, 2006

multi

i noticed that when i post, i usually put a lot of gibberish about my personal life and so-called feelings rather than my everyday doings which i understand is actually the purpose of blogging.. so in order for this blog to have some variation, let me talk about some things about my day..

Highest Priority
these two words are overused in one of my class.. mainly because they, i mean we, actually they, discuss how a computer knows which instruction or module or whatever should it process or acknowledge or whatever first.. well, in the middle of his discussion, my instructor's phone beeped, and his attention was caught.. at first he didn't mind, but since he got so distracted he went and attended to his phone anyway.. while he did that, i said to myself, "now that's highest priority.." and because of that, my dormant thoughts were triggered and i started thinking about my own priorities while staring at some papers in my front.. i remember, i have this line that i used to say about priorities, but sorry i'm not gonna repeat it here.. you know, honestly, it's easy to say and think that you know what you prioritize, but it's twice as hard to actually stand by it.. especially when those priorities are not settled as to how you thought you've settled them..
TRIVIA: the words priority/priorities/prioritize were used 5 times in this paragraph..


Enough.. For Now..
first, let me clear that i'm so not in sentimental mood of any sort about this topic.. it just happened that Neon suddenly played in my ear this afternoon for no apparent reason, it hasn't been in my LSS and i haven't heard it for a long time.. the line that kept repeating was "coz i, i know i can never be enough.." enough.. do i really think that i can never be enough?.. just enough.. but before we proceed, here's what MW has to say about this word..

occurring in such quantity, quality, or scope
as to fully meet demands, needs, or expectations

exact, sufficient, adequate, enough.. uhmm.. i'm not sure i've ever been enough.. i'm not saying i'm useless though.. there are some things that i can accomplish well.. and like any other, there are some things that i just can't do.. let's just say that some times i exceed, but most of the time i lack..


Some Time and Getting Used To
the previous post i've made was about breaking-up.. which i would like to relate with my present condition.. no, no, no, i'm not going through a break-up.. but i somehow feel like i've broken up with something, the television.. it's the several-days-blackout that should be blamed actually.. i got used to the battery-operated radio and i-hope-its-battery-will-last-throughout-the-day cellphone that i don't even watch tv anymore though power's obviously back.. i no longer stay in front of it blinding my eyes while scanning the channels over and over for hours.. i don't even bother taking over the remote control.. i'm so tied up with the computer lately.. but i guess we'll see about tomorrow, since it's thursday and it's GA day.. gah, this topic is so unnecessary and i know that you agree..


One Word: Gasp
my initial reaction upon reading the quote that i'm about to post was actually a gasp.. not a single word, not one odd/funny look on my face, but just one huge, breath-drowning gasp.. you can start wondering why, coz i do too.. kidding..

"I'm falling and I don't want anyone to catch me..
because i've got my own feet to land on, and your hand to pull me up.."
*gasps*



Kelly Clarkson - Trouble With Love Is MP3 Lyrics
Sugababes - Too Lost In You Mp3 Lyrics


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October 03, 2006

tonight i can write the stupidest lines

if it wasn't for my annoying compulsion of moving my knuckles other than sandwiching air with it and something hard and ruin my dexterity in the process, i wouldn't be here trying to mess up with your already mess-driven mind..


i knew there's something about these past months.. coz i heard we are now in the break-up season.. yup, you read right.. i also didn't know that there is actually a break-up season.. basically, they say that summer is known as the hook-up season.. then during the -ber months, relationships get shaky and mostly they don't last until before the next season, which is of course the Christmas season you schmuck!.. i find it funny though, coz since Christmas is smelly than ever, i thought people are supposed to want to have someone with them.. to think that statistically, they actually separate during the times that they should be together then get back during February (and i'd assume you know why..) which makes me think, does it mean that people actually give a shit about Valentine's Day more than Christmas? coz personally i'm so into Christmas and no i'm so not bitter i just think that the previous falls under the category "stupid tradition".. back to break-up season.. that thing somewhat amazes me, you know breaking up.. i don't know, but no matter how predictable separations are, they all seem sudden to me.. say, one becomes aloof in the relationship, then the other plays the part who takes things for granted and acts as if nothing's wrong.. then eventually, inevitably, they'd break-up.. some may say that it should be easy since they somehow saw it coming.. but i really don't know.. i still find it sudden.. every break-up is sudden.. did i say all break-ups are sudden? sudden.. death..



since we're already spending some wasteful time together and i'm here draining my mind out, let me push things and continually eliminate the inhibitions that i have left, if there's any.. this is something not a lot of people know.. truth is, i have this thing about endings.. not that i dread them or hate them.. i'm just not a fan of its very concept.. something starts then it ends? what the? sure you can start thinking that i'm being irrational.. and i won't argue coz i know i wouldn't win, i don't know how to defend it anyway, it's just one of those superficial principles that i have, which i concretely believe in, thank you..


yesterday morning, MR did the top ten ways to finish the sentence "i am allergic to commitment / marriage / relationship because.." as always, entries were amusing.. some made all the sense in the world, some were obviously just being witty.. but the best part was when he and she comment on some then elaborate the topic, so well, i almost understood it.. there was a lot of nice entries but the only one that i can remember is, "..because history tends to repeat itself.."

so as an ending to this post, i would like to share some of the nicest break-up / goodbye songs.. i'm sure i'll miss some, these are just on top of my head.. click away..

1. Chris Brown - Say Goodbye MP3 Lyrics
2. Jonathan Foreman & Mandy Moore - Someday We'll Know MP3 Lyrics
3. Passage - Til My Heartaches End MP3 Lyrics
4. Craig David - One Last Dance MP3 Lyrics
5. Jennifer Love Hewitt - Take My Heart Back MP3 Lyrics


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