To Err Is Human..

June 28, 2006

let the media player do the talking..

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2.Press forward for each question.
3. Use the title as the answer to each question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING.
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.

How are you feeling today?
Just the two of us (Will Smith) pwede.. hehe..

Will you get far in life?
Bring me to life (Evanescence)

How do your friends see you?
Dare you to move (Switchfoot)

Will you get married?
Sa kanya (Ogie Alcasid) awww.. hehe.. btw, sino sya?

What is your best friend's theme song?
Chances are (Johnny Mathis) walang bestfriend pero may theme song ah..

What is the story of your life?
Angel's wings (Westlife)

What was high school like?
Tender love (Uncle Sam) ohw..hehe..

How can you get ahead in life?
Halaga (Parokya ni Edgar)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Forever's not enough (Sarah Geronimo) aww..

What is today going to be like?
I'll never let you go (Third Eye Blind) hala..

What is in store for this weekend?
Hands to heaven (Breathe) kailangan ko nga yatang ipagdasal..

What song describes you?
Miss you love (Silverchair) 75/25..

To describe your grandparents?
Numb (Slapshock) woohoo..

How is your life going?
Cry me a river (Justin Timberlake) *gasp*

What song will they play at your funeral?
It's the way you make me feel (Steps)

How does the world see you?
Radio (The Corrs) hehe..

Will you have a happy life?
Something (The Beatles) ganda naman ng kanta na to..

What do your friends really think of you?
Rock your body (Justin Timberlake) hehehe..

Do people secretly lust for you?
You (Ric Sigreto)

How can i make myself happy?
This is our song (Code Red)

What should you do with your life?
Spend my life with you (Eric Benet feat. Tamia) good.. hehe

Will you ever have children?
Mariposa - Sugarfree di mo lang alam, inaasam ang panahong makapiling ka sa una't huling pagkakataon..

TAG: tina-tag ko ang mga taong gustong magpa-tag.. malaki na kayo marunong na kayong magkusa.. hehe.. nakakaaliw in fairness, baka mahikayat kayo..

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June 26, 2006

Looking for a place to land.

i think i'm getting good at this.. no, not blogging, i don't think i'll ever be good with this coz i don't express here like i'm supposed to coz i know people can read this, but isn't that the whole point of this thing?.. anyway..

i'm still getting good at this.. not at conversing, or talking or expressing (again) for that matter.. it's something that i've been trying to do.. something that doesn't involve internet, a computer, or any tangible thing, just to narrow it down.. i've tried it some time ago, but it never! worked.. i'm just wondering, what in the world is the reason that i'm pulling this thing off now?.. i mean, i'm doing it the same way i did before.. with the same factors involved.. oh not really there's just one concrete factor, the others vary with time.. well, i guess, uh maybe, i'm really learning.. you know, how to put my (argh fine i'll say it) ~~heart~~ where it should be.. i'll say it first before you can even think of it, no, i'm so not broken hearted.. in fact, i feel so normal.. this thing that i'm trying to do is doing wonders, even a bitter pill is easy to swallow.. sure i may shiver once in a while, but that's expectable, i'm used to that, i'll get by.. hopefully this will be the last time that i'll talk about this.. but i'm not saying that this IS the last time.. just being hopeful.. :p

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June 24, 2006

If you decide that you're indecisive, which one are you?

The Bottom Line
No one is going to stand in your way, so you have to stop using that as an excuse.

In Detail
If you let too many negative thoughts invade your mind right now, slowly but surely you'll begin to believe them. That is not acceptable! This is especially true now, when all outward signs will point to bad news. But if you keep your chin up and don't take 'no' for an answer, you'll see that the big ferocious lions standing guard at the gates are really just cute little kitty cats in need of a good head rub. You have the power, so no excuses are allowed!

whoever came up with that horoscope was not thinking straight.. i can tell that person don't even know an Aquarian born.. but are all Aquarians like me? hmm? but hello??!! me? not take 'no' for an answer? gosh.. don't you know that's a formula for disaster? if there's one thing i'm good at (i think and try at the very least), that would be on keeping things repressed.. although sometimes i suddenly wonder, what if i let go.. what would happen? what would happen? what would happen? i know what would happen.. so i just don't let go.. hehe.. and oh oh! no more negative thoughts.. let's just say i have them all "under control"..

off topic: i remember a post wherein i wasn't so sure about Keanu being gay or not.. news flash! he WAS really gay.. but i didn't know he has a girlfriend for 3 years whom he just asked to marry him last week.. so that makes him not gay anymore.. or does it? anyways, i just want to mention that to clarify the old post..

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June 21, 2006

learning

"Sinungaling na panaginip, di ka raw lumalayo sa akin.."
Tulog - South Border

i woke up from a dream around 3am.. my heart was racing.. it really felt real.. i almost wish it was.. but of course it wasn't.. "We only want to pursue the things we cannot have.." in my dream you asked one of the things i dread to hear.. and i said yes, as i would if ever you ask me that for real.. and by taking that dream as a hint, things went a little easier for me.. which is a good thing.. coz i know sooner or later it will happen, and i know i can't be too selfish.. and that dream helped me endure things easily, swallow my pride a little, and admit some things to my self while keeping my dignity intact in the process.. not an easy thing to do, and no, i'm not doing this just to appear sacrificial and be pitied on.. and i know i haven't been asked, but just in case you want to but don't just know how.. "go on.. you know where to find me just in case all else fails.."

Keane- - This is The Last Time

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June 17, 2006

the house over the lake

though there's one question that i don't know the answer for in this movie, i still find it worthy of my time.. nice twists i'm telling ya.. or maybe i just didn't think of or predict the ending that's why i was kinda like *aww*.. hehe.. chemistry is still there.. makes me want to watch Speed for the nth time.. that movie (Speed) is one of those movies that has got overwatched here a few years back.. i have not seen it lately so if anybody has a vcd/dvd, kindly lend me one..hehe.. and oh!.. i noticed, Keanu has this nice speaking voice.. nice, sexy, hot speaking voice, call it whatever you want.. hehe.. all i know is it is somehow attractive.. i don't know if he had it all along or it was just in this movie.. but let me ask, wasn't there a rumor that Keanu is gay? or was it a rumor? 'coz as far as i can remember, he actually admitted it.. not sure about it though.. i also remember he said something like Tom (Cruise) can now come out of the closet since he (Keanu) is already out of his.. but hey, don't take my word for it, i could be wrong.. those could be something i heard somewhere and had stuck in my memory.. 'coz if those were true, (could really be just my imagination) those could've been mentioned over the news right? but what does it matter.. the movie is good.. the tandem is effective.. not that boring romance flick kind.. so i say, uhmm.. 3.75 stars out of 5..

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June 16, 2006

Who would have thought?

"I know you can be underwhelmed, and you can be overwhelmed. But can you ever be just whelmed?"
"I think you can in Europe.."

i no longer dislike fridays.. in fact, now i'm liking it like no other.. just as much as i like the song that i'm listening to since i got home.. (you should know by now what that is).. used to be that i don't like fridays 'cause i just get to stay at home on weekends and just sit around, look occupied but really isn't.. but lately i've been counting the days 'til it's friday already.. coz that would mean that i get to do those things that i wasn't really keen on doing before.. not to mention, i get to get out, do whatever i want, as long as i can get there or my pockets allow.. BUT! the biggest, most important, makes me really wish that everday is friday, thing is that i get to have my over the top favorite food on this day!! just like i did today!.. *craves* i don't know how it is called in english though.. sauteed beans? hehe crappy.. very crappy.. but i assume that you know which food i'm talking about.. okay, so what is it about this food that i like it so much i would pick it over lechon or any other yummier food that you would probably pick? nothing actually.. i just like it just because.. especially with fried fish.. gosh.. yummy.. those are the times that i stay long eating on the table.. i eat and eat until i'm so full, i'm nauseous.. hihihi.. maybe you find it shallow that i drool over this thing.. well, okay, drool is a little bit of an overstatement.. but you can think whatever you want.. here is where the fact that some things can mean something to one person but nothing to another comes in.. it just needs a little understanding.. (okay, whatever floats your already sinking boat Les..)

i was so itching to have at least a burned copy of What Hurts the Most that i had that one song burned in a mini disc 'coz my generous cd source hasn't been going online lately.. and when i came back to the shop this evening, they were playing it.. she went like, "ayan kanina pa pinapatugtog yang pinadownload mo, nagustuhan eh.." i just went like, "favorite na ba?" then smiled.. when i got out i asked myself, did i smile because i was glad 'coz they liked it too or because i just don't want to look impolite? i said last time that i don't want it to be popular and them liking it doesn't make it a hit.. but still, i wondered.. then i realized that i like this song so much that i really don't give an air if it becomes popular.. and it really doesn't matter if others feel the same way as i do, what matters is i know what i feel.. (what was the topic again?) enough said..

tonight was the first time (in a long time) that i gambled.. yes, talking about real gambling.. first, 5, then later 10, then went to 20.. until i realized there's nothing left in my pocket.. none of those that fold, even those that jiggle.. and what i got in return? nothing.. not a cent back.. i didn't win even once.. there certainly was no beginner's luck.. it was really hard to win, considering the odds.. maybe that's why i tend to prefer watching rather than playing a few innings.. (innings, what innings are you talking about Les?).. losing is a good motivation though..

darn, i wish i was in Europe!..

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June 14, 2006

out of sight.. out of mind..

maybe it was a little disappointing..
but i'll get by and i'm not going to talk about it..
and i can see how long this post will be..

so my defense was done and over with.. nothing really astounding about it though.. but the panel didn't ask a lot 'cause according to them my presentation was good enough so they don't have anything more to ask.. and that's a good thing.. and i was glad 'cause they said that my documentation was done well.. the whole thing was quick.. just 15 minutes i think.. i really don't have much to say about it i'm just so relieved hearing some compliments from them.. but i think i would be more glad if when it was done i would uhmm.. nah, i said i'm not going to talk about it..

i know how i usually say "i like this song", "that song is beautiful", "that's my favorite song once upon a time..", "shet i love this song!", and all that things i say when i hear a nice song.. i even post the lyrics here, don't i?.. but let me just say it again.. the first time i heard the song What Hurts The Most, my heart raced.. hey i'm not exaggerating things here.. this song really hit me.. mostly the chorus part.. then i realized that the whole song was nicely written.. i searched for its music video, and i fortunately found it.. i've put it on the sidebar 'cause i don't want it to be overwritten by later posts.. sad video but i like listening to it better than actually watching it.. and i know this is going to be a bold statement, but i think i've just found another favorite song.. i can level this with other songs that i really like.. i know how i say i like this song, but later i'll forget about it until i hear it again.. but not this one, this is different.. i'm serious that i like this song an awful lot.. not that i was not serious previously, i was.. i'm just more serious now.. i almost wish i wrote this song.. the words are just so simple and true.. so honest.. here's the thing though, i've been listening to it since last night, for like 50 times or more (seriously) but i can't seem to memorize the words to the stanzas.. with other songs, i can sing along in just a snap.. sometimes i don't even have to actually hear the song, i'll just memorize it like a poem.. dunno.. maybe because i really don't tend to sing along with it, i just enjoy listening.. another thing is that it's not that popular.. i don't even know the band until i heard this song.. and i've never heard this song until they sang it.. fyi, this is a remake.. i think from the early '90s.. i wish this wouldn't be so much of a hit.. i have this thing of liking things when they are not popular 'cause when they already are i find them over exposed so it's not exciting anymore.. this song is played over the radio, that's where i heard it first, but i don't think others pay attention to it.. can't assure that when someone hears this, he/she will like it.. maybe i'm just the only one.. and maybe people will think that i'm sadden by this song, but no.. maybe i'm supposed to be sad everytime i hear this, 'cause it's a sad song.. but i surprisingly feel happy.. like it inspires me.. like i'm really in awe that there's a song like this.. or i could be just happy..

i've been a regular visitor of this blog since i've known about it.. since then, i get amazed on a weekly basis.. people's entries are really something.. some are just so simple, that you are well aware of it and feel for them.. some will give you goosebumps 'cause you know that this secret is so true and existing.. and some are really big and unbelievable that you'll be stunned that such things happen to people.. remember i said i want to and will send in one?.. i'll be working on it soon.. not telling when though or whether i've sent it already.. that won't interest anyone anyway..

uhmm.. ok, i guess, i'm done overtalking for now..

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June 13, 2006

oh ok..

it's an enigma when you fall in love and accept that some good things never last.. suddenly you'll begin to see yourself as nothing.. it's an agony to accept that despite the feelings you have, it's all not enough.. but when you love someone, you would do the hardest thing.. and yes, it's not going to be easy, but at least you know that what you feel is real.. in the end, you'll ask yourself, "does it hurt?" then you'll close your eyes and whisper, "yes.. but it's all worthwhile.."

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June 12, 2006

next level gig..

hinamak ang total na 5 hours na byahe.. balewala ang 4 bus, 1 mrt, 1 taxi, at 2 fx rides.. nasulit ang 800+.. kahit muntik na mahold-up.. o malapitan ng tatlong strangers.. ano ngayon kung mapasayaw si Mau sa stage (pag sinuswerte ka nga naman! :p hehe).. mapapatawad ko na natabunan yung request ko, at least nung sinigaw ko, kinanta ni Juris yung first two lines.. *glad*

thanks kay Jovi, ninenok ko tong pic sa album nya eh.. wala pa kasi yung pics namin..

bow din ako dun sa dalawang front acts.. flipside and shayne.. hanep sa galing.. nakakapagtaka tuloy kung bakit hindi sila sikat samantalang mas magaling sila sa iba.. syempre babanggitin ko yung kasama ni shayne magperform.. hindi ko narinig ng maayos yung name nya.. ang galing din nun, cute pa.. kasali daw sya sa Philippine idol eh, manunuod tuloy ako ng di oras.. *hihi*

na-overwhelm ako sa dami ng magagandang kantang narinig ko sa gabing 'to.. andyan na yung di mo mapigil na mapagroove sa mga upbeat na kanta.. syempre hindi rin mawawala yung mapapa-awww ka sa mga ballad.. katuwa pa may nagtitinda ng roses doon sa loob.. basta.. galing.. gusto ko na bumalik don.. saya talaga pag sumusweldo na ang mga friendly friends.. ano ngayon kung higit 24hours na gising basta makapag-gig.. :p

speaking of sumusweldo na friends, sobrang tuwa ko nung nakasabay ko si Jemay at nalaman kong nagtuturo na pala sya sa HS sa baste.. speechless talaga ako nung kinakausap nya ako.. mukha na naman tuloy akong tanga.. hindi talaga ako nakapagsalita.. sobrang nagulat ako.. pero good gulat ha.. nakaka-proud kasi eh.. mantakin mo may barkada akong teacher!! cmon sinong hindi magiging proud?! (o wag magagalit ang mga nasa office at call center ha!hehe)

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June 09, 2006

first last day high

yung manager at supervisor ko lang ang nakakaalam na last day ko kanina.. akala ko hindi mararamdaman nung iba na last day ko na.. yun ang akala ko..

pag-upo ko sa office.. "uy last day ni Leslie, eh di may meryenda mamaya?"
pagdaan ng isang eng'r.. "group hug mamaya ha.."
pag daan ng supervisor.. "ano shot shot mamaya?"
pag-labas ko ng rest room.. "last day mo pala ngayon no, di ka nagsasalita.."
basta kanya kanya sila nga kantyaw sakin, sulat daw ako ng madalas at text text daw kami samantalang di naman namin alam ang number ng isa't isa.. patawa tawa lang ako..

vip treatment ang natanggap ko sa company na yun.. hindi nila ako masyadong pinahirapan o inuutusan.. actually may mga araw na nakaupo lang talaga ako.. pero may natutunan din naman ako.. wala kasi akong allowance kaya siguro wala naman silang susulitin sakin.. at dahil last day ko, ininvite ako nung manager na maglunch sa labas.. treat nya daw kasi last day ko.. kasama namin yung supervisor.. nakakatawa yung ibang employees kasi buti pa raw ako eh sila hindi tinitreat non.. well, anong magagawa ko malakas ako eh.. joke!

hindi ako madaldal sa office.. minsan nga tinatanong ako kung ganon din ba daw akong katahimik sa school.. seryoso kasi ako pagnakikipagusap sa kanila eh.. straight answers lang, walang jokes o sarcasm.. pero nakikipagtawanan din naman ako sa kanila.. lalo nung one time na pinagusapan yung mga kanya kanyang college lives nung mga eng'r don.. nakakatuwa talaga.. anyway.. hindi ko alam kung anong pumasok sa isip ko at napilosopo ko yung eng'g clerk.. hindi ko alam kung natural na ba sakin yun at di ko lang napigil kanina o feeling ko pwede na ako makiloko sa kanila since last day ko na.. maaga kasi kaming lumabas for lunch.. kaya pagbalik namin, magisa lang ako sa office at sarado ang lahat ng ilaw dahil lunch break ng employees.. inilawan ko yung cellphone ko dahil may narinig akong paparating para hindi sya matakot sakin baka pagkamalaman akong multo dahil sorang dilim.. pagkakita nya sakin sabi nya, "oh nandito ka na?".. walang alinlangan ko syang sinagot, "hindi wala pa ako.." ngumiti ako pero hindi ako sigurado kung nakita nya kasi nga madilim.. naisip ko na lang, "siyet bat ganon yung sagot ko?hehe hayaan mo na.." sabay tungo at binirahan ko ng tulog..

around 3pm ng lumapit sakin yung supervisor ko at sumenyas sya na sunod daw ako.. syempre sunod naman ako.. nasa parang maliit na conference room na kami nung binalik nya yung evaluation form ko.. kwento kwento tapos sumenyas ulit sya na tayo na raw kami.. tapos kinamayan nya ko sabay sabing, "sige Leslie, goodluck ha.." nakakatuwa kasi talagang nagpaalam pa sya sakin.. nahihiya siguro na makita nung ibang eng'rs kaya di nya ako sa office kinausap.. touching moment ito, medyo nakaclose ko rin kasi yun saka marami akong utang na loob sa kanya..*winks*

almost 5pm na nung pinuntahan ako nung manager para ibigay yung certificate ko.. sabi nya sakin, "meryenda muna tayo bago ka umuwi.." tapos malakas nya sinabi na, "alas singko punta kayo sa canteen.." ibig sabihin lahat ng employees invited sa canteen.. sabi nung clerk, "ganyan ka namin kamahal dito, may padespedida ka pa.." lakas ko talaga no.. pero wag ka munang maamaze dahil totoong may salu-salo sa canteen pero hindi totoo na para sa akin yun.. treat ng company yun for a job well done dahil may recent client sila na nagsign na yata ng deal sa kanila.. nagkataon lang na last day ko at may handaan..

pinakanalungkot ako (hindi ko alam kung bakit pero nakakalungkot talaga) ay nung tapos ng treat sa canteen.. bumalik ako magisa sa office para mag-alis ng uniform at kuhanin yung gamit ko.. pauwi na ako.. pero naisip ko dumaan sa mga office para mag paalam at magthank you.. paglabas ko ng eng'g dept., nasalubong ko yung technician, "sir una na po ako thank you po.." then pinuntahan ko yung manager, "sir thank you po talaga." pati sa boss na Japanese, nagpaalam din ako.. next pinuntahan ko yung mga eng'rs.. "mga sir, una na po ako, thank you po.." at pagdating ko sa locker room, nandon yung ibang employees at operators, kanya kanya silang paalam sakin.. ewan ko talaga pero nalungkot ako nung pauwi na ako.. isa na namang ending sa buhay ko to.. hindi ko expected na ganon pero ganon talaga eh.. at syempre kanya kanya sila ng paalala, "oh ingat sa pagtawid ha.."

ayun na, it's official, tapos na ang OJT ko..

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