January 31, 2006
so sick
Ne-Yo
gotta change
now that i'm alone
coz right now it says that WE
can't come to the phone
and I know it makes no sense
coz you walked out the door
but it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous) it's been months for some reason
I just (can't get over us)
and i'm stronger than this
(enough is enough) no more walking 'round with my head down
i'm so over being blue
crying over you
and i'm
so tired of tears
so done with wishing you were still here
said i'm
so sad and slow
so why can't I turn off the radio?
gotta fix that calendar I had
that's marked
coz since there is no more you
there's no more anniversary
i'm so fed up with My thoughts of You
and your memories
and now every song reminds me of what used to be
leave me alone,
don't make me think about her smile
or having my first child
i'm letting go ???!!!
can i just hit my head against the wall? feels like two demons are having a good time in it.. and migrane is to blame..
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January 30, 2006
am i being punished?
it all started last night.. when my biological clock seems to be not functioning properly.. maybe we were in a different timezone.. my 10pm was equal to its 3am.. not to mention the what felt like a 30 minute interval of waking up.. and actually getting up at 7.. pft!.. a great deal for a starter..
i scanned the tv channels this morning with hopes that i can catch the Screen Actors Guild Awards.. i was looking around for a good 15 minutes, going over the channels repeatedly, but there was not even a glimpse of SAGA.. so i just waited for updates over the radio instead..
according to a source, maybe February, Mohan's coming back.. woohooo.. now, that's something to look forward to.. the only thing i'm looking forward to.. i used to be really really excited about the plant visit but, since last week, my excitement was gone.. well, back with Mohan.. i can't wait.. i can't believe i'm actually smiling by the mere thought of it.. my sleepless nights will be well-spent again.. am i excited? damn it, i'm counting the days!
the plant visit was set, of all dates!, on Feb. 9.. in case you didn't know, that's the same date as the Grammy award's night.. the very prestigious, yearly awaited Grammy's.. and i won't be able to watch it.. truth be told, i still don't know what to expect from the show.. who's performing? who's presenting? who's making an unexpected appearance? who's nominated for what? and since, obviously i won't see it (unless the universe will conspire to move the plant visit on a different date), i'll never know.. but still, there's always grammy.com and the ever reliable yahoo news..
i almost forgot that SugarFree had their second album repacked.. it was released last week.. the same songs from Dramachine, but now it comes with all of the music videos and two (if i'm not mistaken) new songs.. i've heard one.. the title is cuida?!.. it was pronounced differently though.. at first i thought it was "shu-da" but it wasn't.. something like "kwi-da" or "shu-wi-da" or "chukchakchenez".. whatever..
finally, i've gathered the will to start reading Angels and Demons.. i have an e-book since i don't know when.. but everytime i attempt to read it, i just end up not reading it.. but last saturday was different.. i think i'm going to like this more than the Da Vinci Code.. however, it's too early to conclude.. i am now on chapter 26.. 116 chapters more to find out.. great..
the complete phrase from which the title of this blog was from is to err is human, to forgive divine.. i chose it out of my growing fascination with idioms.. and just to make things clear, a person who likes idioms is not referred to as an idiot.. but who am i to oppose that i'm an exception?!..
hiding in the innocence of the term "Cisco", is one more awaiting punishment called e-lab activities, so i'll have to end this here..
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January 25, 2006
duel with the downpour
i'm not really a huge fan of rainy days.. i don't really enjoy them especially at night because i can't help thinking of unlikely things that could happen.. although i admit it's nice to cuddle tight when it's cold or windy..
i went out this afternoon to go to a computer shop and do some errands.. and being the unfortunate person that i am, i got caught up in the downpour.. to reach home, i only have two options.. first is to take a tricycle and the second is to take the challenge of walking/running two long blocks in the face of the angry rain.. either way, i'm going to get soaked big time.. so i took the first one.. the tricycle was parked a little far from the curb that i'm standing at.. so even before i got my
finally, i actually reached home in one piece..
so, what's the lesson of my anecdote?
next time you go out on a rainy day, bring a freakin' umbrella..
(that's one lesson that always slip my mind.. hehe)
but since i enjoyed that duel with the downpour, i guess rainy days weren't so bad after all..
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January 24, 2006
what does Frank Sinatra, Rod Stewart, Barbra Streisand and Dean Martin have in common?
aside from being pillars of the music industry, they all sang a song with these words:
I'm in the mood for love simply because you're near me
Funny, but when you're near me, i'm in the mood for love..
You Are Different Because..
(what mild insomia made me do)
you are different because..
your shadow gives me warmth
your light blinds me
you give a piece of your heart
which always amaze me
your absence is my sickness
your smile is my cure
your presence makes today
better than before
your eyes make me weak
your love is what i'm made of
you make my heart break
but always beg for more
your every bit is my everything
you're the lead that i will follow
you give me such a feeling
that i never thought i'd know
your memory is the best i had
your name made a history
you can disarm my pride
and make me brave enough to cry
you're the lead actor in my dreams
you're in it though i'm awake
you're making me insane
and i love every second of it..
1.21.06 23.35
getting too comfy posting my writing gibberish here?!.. stop me please.. or might as well, i should just stop myself..
should you want to take my breath away..
and much more..
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January 20, 2006
an ode to unrequited love
i'll list all songs that i listened to while writing this:
falling - janno gibbs
pangarap ko ang ibigin ka - regine velasquez
passenger seat - stephen speaks
how can i fall - breathe
ordinary people - john legend
questions - artstrong
against all odds - westlife feat. mariah carey
the good kind - the wreckers
what can i do - the corrs
i just can't let go - david pack
if your heart is cracked, i bet you mine is too
every time someone comes along i swear it will be the last
but look at me, i still fall from that same high ground
every time someone comes along, my heart still ends up bruised
the sound of a breaking heart is not pleasant to the ear
but we are just so hardheaded when it comes to love
thinking that risking is a manifestation of love
not thinking that some love should just sit silently
some may say that love is unfair and all
with that, i would have to disagree
little did they know that love is good when returned
but it is better if it's not..
i'm not trying to sound bitter or cold or callous
i think reciprocated love is just so not often
i learned to fight a battle where i would not lose
i realized that love is not asked, it is felt
and as reverence to unrequited love, i will say these words:
i love you and you don't have to know
i love you and we don't have to be
i love you though it's my cross to bear
i love you because it's my delight
i love you because i can't imagine myself loving anybody else
disclaimer of some sort:
this ode doesn't imply my current situation or anything.. i've always wanted to write an ode about this, tonight just happens to be the time when i'm in the mood for it.. the songs that i listened to was just fitting so i thought 'hey why not'.. took me 10 songs?!... tsktsk.. sorry i'm no pro with this..
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January 18, 2006
so well-trained, so animal..
alam mo kung anong na-realize kong kinaiinisan ko? yung mga bitchesang anak mayaman.. oo na mayaman na sila pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bat kailangan nilang maging maarte.. hindi ko nilalahat, marami ding anak mayaman pero ok naman eh.. at hindi rin ibig sabihing mga babae lang ang mga ito.. nakaw naman talaga.. lalo yung mga nagbibitaw ng mga gantong salita sa napakaarteng tono habang sumisiksik sa harapan ko:
"my god naman, nag-aamoy smoke na ko, nababadtrip na ko.."
pft! eh di mabadtrip ka.. punta punta ka doon.. silaban pa kita dyan eh.. wag ka magpapakita sakin.. kahit na hindi ko naman natatandaan ang mukha mo at wala akong balak..
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January 14, 2006
of a song, a dream, and their mysteries
why do i have to here that song? why when i'm alone and not in the mood for anything other than being still?.. why when it followed that other song which somehow set a melancholic mood? why now? i don't actually remember anything or anyone when i hear that song but each time i do i always hear myself utter "ay shet" in a very comfortable uncomfortable way.. not that i don't want to hear it, in fact i enjoy it.. i enjoy it very much.. just imagine the scenario: you are very calm and peaceful then suddenly you'll hear a sad song then you'd feel all sad in a snap and you have no idea why.. maybe i simply don't wanna be sad.. no, not tonight..
last night, i dreamt i was floating.. i yahoo-ed it and here's what i got..
Floating in water can be symbolic of floating on top of your emotions and being in harmony with the unconscious. Floating through the air has the same symbolism as flying. Floating usually represents your current feelings of peacefulness and general freedom. On a more negative note, floating could also be symbolic of your aloofness, lack of connection or a need to become more grounded.
in my dream, i was floating in air.. does that mean i'm peaceful and free? in my dream, i fell face first.. does that mean though i'm peaceful and free, i'm gonna fall badly? in my dream, after i fell, the place changed (you know how dreams changes scenarios alot), and i was in a terrace-like place watching a fireworks display.. does that mean that after flying and falling hard, there'd be something good in store for me?.. and in my dream, i was really (to the nth power) happy while watching that display.. not laughing-out-loud happy.. now i don't know what would that mean.. gee, the last part almost made me mistake that dream as reality.. hmm.. don't want to dwell on the negative part of its meaning..
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January 13, 2006
friday the 13th
friday the 13th ngayon.. sabi maraming kamalasan daw ang nangyayari sa gantong araw.. ewan ko rin.. kasi para sakin typical "friday" ngayon.. you know friday.. ako lang yata nakakaramdam ng ganto pag friday.. as in feeling ko eh "friday" hehehe.. labo ko.. malamang dahil end of the week na kasi kaya ganoon.. parang gusto ko ayaw ko nang friday.. pero di ba dapat gusto ang friday kasi kinabukasan eh saturday at rest day yun.. kaya siguro saturday ang gusto ko at hindi friday..hahaha.. naguguluhan ka na? ako medyo.. pero basta type lang ako ng type kahit medyo mahirap pindutin tong space bar ng keyboard na to.. ngayon ko lang ginawa to, yung mag type as in dirediretso, as in kung anong pumasok sa isip ko.. walang preno.. hindi kaya ako maaksidente nito?!.. huh?.. teka, nauubusan na ko ng ittype. pero hindi.. hindi ako pwedeng tumigil.. hahaha.. nakakatawa ako.. pero hindi naman nakakatuwa.. ibang klase talaga ang "friday" sakin.. waahhhh.. wala na akong maisip.. sige na nga tama na to.. gusto ko lang naman talagangmag-post eh..kaya eto nag-post na ko.. sige..
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January 10, 2006
online quiz galore
| Greed: | Low | |
| Gluttony: | Medium | |
| Wrath: | Low | |
| Sloth: | Medium | |
| Envy: | Very Low | |
| Lust: | Very Low | |
| Pride: | Medium |
The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson "But since you've been gone I can breathe for the first time I'm so moving on" In 2005, you moved on. |
| Your 1920's Name is: |
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January 05, 2006
untitled (hindi kanta 'to)
BABALA: kung madali kang antukin o mainip, pinapayo kong i-click mo na yung back button para sa ikakabuti mo.. medyo mahaba to.. at mukhang walang kwenta..
Pasakalye:
kung kahapon eh tinatamad akong mag-type at mag-isp, ngayon sobrang ganado ako mag-type pero mag-isip hindi pa ako sigurado.. medyo lahok lahok ang ilalagay ko, "random" sa madaling sabi.. kahit mga walang kwentang bagay baka i-type ko na rin kasi nga sobrang ganado ako eh.. hehehe.. sabi sa isang site, makikilala mo raw ang isang tao sa pamamagitan ng blog nya.. try mo lang..
umpisa na..
Pagod na ang utak ko
nabasa ko yang phrase na yan sa likod ng tricycle paglabas ko kaninang umaga.. medyo inaantok pa ako kahit 11.30 na yun.. at ewan ko, pero parang feeling ko ako yung nagsulat nun.. inisip ko nga kung ano naman ang ikakapagod ng utak ko? wala naman akong masyadong iniisip.. sa acads naman, mas konti pa nga ang subjects ko sa classmates ko eh kaya hindi ako pwedeng mapressure ng sobra.. ewan ko talaga pero parang napapagod na ang utak ko (kung meron ako non).. sana pahinga lang ang katapat nito.. sana ganahan na akong mag-isip..
She: "kwento mo kay Leslie.."
He: "wala namang kwentang kwentuhan yan.."
ouch!.. tsktsk..
nakakainip naman yung release nung 5th book ni Bob Ong na Stainless Longganisa.. gusto ko na mabasa yun, sabi maganda daw.. gusto ko nang husgahan.. nagreview na nga ako eh.. binasa ko rin nung bakasyon yung ABNKKBSNPLKo, Alamat ng Gubat at Bakit Baligtad na hiniram ko kay Rob kamakailan.. (kamakailan?!!hehehe) sabi nag-deliver na daw sa mga bookstokes pero hanggang ngayon, wala parin.. Filipino time nga naman.. sobrang nakaka-relate ako dyan..
She: "kilala mo pa ba ako?"
galing ang tanong na yan sa isang kakilala ko, i found it stupid kaya naman stupid din ang response ko..
Me: "kakausapin ba kita ngayon kung hindi kita kilala?"
ayun, nilayasan ako tapos ng ilang minuto..
success story naman..binigay kahapon yung result ng prelim exam namin sa ECE2.. well.. guess what my score is? hehehe.. ahem.. 90/100 lang naman... ahem.. hindi ko sinasadya kung feeling mo eh nagyayabang ako ha.. pero natutuwa lang talaga ako.. sobrang pinag-aralan ko yung notes at exams ni April last year pero sadly hindi pareho yung exam pero ayos din kasi medyo ganon din yung approach.. malaking tulong talaga yun.. medyo "burning the midnight oil" pa nga ang drama ko.. pagdating talaga sa giyera sa subject na yun, ayoko na sumugod nang walang sandata.. ayoko nang matalo ulit at umuwing duguan.. sa laboratory naman nung subject na yun din, ahem ulit, record-breaking to.. first and probably last time na rin.. anong nangyari? 99 lang naman ang isang lab report ko.. hehehe.. gulat talaga ako don (malamang ikaw rin).. napataas ang kilay ko.. nagduda ako bigla sa sarili ko.. hehe.. pero nung nahimasmasan ako, medyo bumaba ng konti ang self-esteem ko.. kasi dun sa 99 na yun, 39 lang pala talaga yung dugo't pawis kasi 40 yung PDS + 10 kasi leader ako + 10 kasi una yung group namin natapos.. pero ayos lang, 99 pa din.. hehehe.. sabi nga ni Juvy, "nireresbakan mo talaga si Maam ha!"
She: "Les, may t-shirt akong nakita bagay sayo.."
enthusiastic ako..
Me:"oh? anong nakalagay?"
She: "Sarcasm is just one of my services.." (or something like that)
di ko alam kung compliment yun o insult..
kung hindi mo pa nararanasan yung LSS, maswerte ka.. kanina naranasan ko ang isang day-long LSS.. pero hindi ko alam kung LSS nga yun kasi hindi ko naman talaga narinig yung kantang yun bago ko paulit-ulit na kinanta yun sa isip ko.. pero medyo ok din naman kasi gusto ko yung kanta.. Be Without You ni Mary J. Blige ang tinutukoy ko.. hanggang ngayon nga eh naka-repeat mode pa rin sa isip ko yun pero The Good Kind ng The Wreckers ang naririnig ko ngayon.. oo, halo-halo na sa tenga at isip ko..
"Hey, I wonder what's down that street; it looks awfully dark and creepy."
Answer: "Let's not try to find out. Curiosity killed the cat."
tama na 'to.. nairaos ko na ang urge ko na mag-type.. sana urge namang mag-aral ang dumapo sakin para sa exam sa Assembly bukas.. babush na muna.. uhmmm.. gusto mo ng parting words?.. eto o.. "Rome was not built in one day".. keep that in mind kids.. *smiles*
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January 04, 2006
tinatamad akong mag-type.. mas lalong mag-isip..
sabi ko sa post ko dati, magbabasa ako ng at least dalawang libro habang Christmas vacation, so eto na sila..
Mission Accomplished!..
"A thousand times I wanted to take his hand, and a thousand times I stopped myself.
I was still confused - I wanted to tell him I loved him, but I didn't know how to begin."
- Paulo Coelho
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January 02, 2006
song of the year
on the last day of 2005, i've seen and heard a lot of year-end countdowns.. naturally because it's the end of the year.. (huh?! of course..) hehe.. and if i were to make my own year-end music countdown, one song will definitely be my song of the year.. it was kind of disappointing because none of the countdowns that i've heard had this particular song as their no. 1.. but who cares, this is my list..
10. Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson proved that she can carry whatever image she decides to have.. nice words, nice melody, nice video, nice song..
9. Unbreakable - good thing MTV decided to launch an Unplugged show again.. she made a great performance not just for this song but her old songs as well.. i must say, this song is so soulful.. so Alicia Keys..
8. Superstar - Usher did a great rendition of this Carpenters original.. his voice suits the song so well, don't make me hear this, i might melt.. hehe..
7. Prom - with a very cool video, this is one great song from Sugarfree..
6. Jesus Take The Wheel - this song from Carry Underwood gave me goosebumps the first time i heard it.. very meaningful..
5. Cool - simple lyrics combined with a catchy tune and a video that fits.. a very nice song from Gwen Stefani..
4. Don't Forget About Us - has been out in a while but i still can't afford to pass on its music video or when i hear it on the radio.. indeed, Mariah Carey swept 2005..
3. Ordinary People - i like this because it is a humble song.. although some may get sleepy with this, i'm not one of them.. this is a worthy debut single from John Legend..
2. Tell Me Where It Hurts - alright now, i heard you laugh.. although you might think this song is overrated, i still like it.. anyway, what i liked first is the Kathy Trocolli version, just a coincidence that MYMP revived it and made it a little r&b-ish and modern..
and the number 1 song is..
drumroll please..
1. This I Promise You
hehehe.. kidding..
seriously, my song of the year is..
1. We Belong Together - up to now, this song amaze me.. tsktsk.. everything about this song is good.. the melody, the artist, the video, everything.. and the VMA performance: whoa!! the black and white effect gave all the justice that this song deserves.. not to mention the red gown of Mariah Carey which was the only thing in color.. tsktsk.. this is just a great great song.. also a great great album..
generally, a lot of good songs were realeased in 2005.. and when i say a lot, i really mean a lot.. but okay, top of my head.. there's Stick With U, The Last Time, Don't Love You No More, You're Beautiful, Because Of You, Must Get Out and many more.. the value of OPM artists and bands also sky-rocketed this year.. so i think 2005 was a good year for music altogether..
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