May 14, 2006
make a mountain out of it if you should..
Sam:"People taking your order?"
Austen: "No.. Taking people's orders.."
A Cinderella Story
The Phrase.
there's nothing wrong about mood swings.. what's wrong is when your mood doesn't swing at all.. but what's worse is when it is stuck in the not-so-high mood.. am i in a bad mood? not anymore, i'm not..
have you ever been so scared in your life? of practically everything.. from the littlest, nonsense thing to the thing that you most dread.. and just when you thought you're not scared anymore you just end up getting scared over and over again that you just can't specify the feeling of being not scared anymore because you got used to the feeling.. and the sad part is that a lot is going to waste because you're too busy getting scared.. but what else are you left with when you have reasons to be scared? when things happen and you're just not ready for it.. when you know time will come that your weakness will be so real you can actually look at it and touch it and you can't do anything but wait for that time, barely breathing, hoping you'll manage to catch your breath until then.. but don't get me continued on reasons to be scared, i might not stop.. yeah i know i shouldn't be scared, i tell that to my self everyday, but the weak part of me just wouldn't agree, and it's got reasons no to..
I saw the sign and it somehow opened up my eyes.
i don't know about you but i sometimes ask for signs.. mostly about petty things.. i do it sometimes out of fun, or of amusement, but the other time, i did it to have something to base my feelings upon.. i asked for a sign, and not more than five minutes later, i saw it.. sadly though, it has shown the unfavorable/unexpected form.. there are actually two factors that affirm the condition i've set for the sign.. the first, but not the bigger deal, was met.. the second, which will make all the fucking difference!, was not.. so at first i was confused.. which should really matter more, the one that was met or the one what wasn't?.. was the sign a good sign or not? then i had made up my mind.. clearly, it wasn't.. i tried to think that maybe the answer to conditions of the sign was neither a yes or a no.. but i don't want to get all my hopes up so i just preferred to believe that it was a no.. sure it was disappointing, i saw it coming though..
The song. That song.
keep fallin in love, which is kind of the same
i've sunk out at sea
crashed my car, gone insane
and it felt so good, i wanna do it again.."
i don't know what it is about that song that revived me last night.. maybe my letting go to singing it has let go of the not-so-good vibe that i had.. anyways, this song is so fun, love love love it.. hee hee.. and its acoustic version was just so argh! good.. as if it summons me evertime i hear it.. fuck iwebtunes for not having this..
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