November 18, 2006
Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and i'm yours forever.
and you're very hard to get to know.
CRISTINA: Yes.
Grey's Anatomy, 2x09 "Thanks For The Memories"
i, myself, don't ask a lot of personal questions, and maybe that's one of the reasons (if there's many) why i was hit by those lines hard, so hard it got stuck in my head for a week, you know, just like a broken record there.. i'm not a don't-care person, in fact i care a lot, even for some things that i don't have to care about, so not caring can't possibly be the reason why it appears that i don't have curiosity or eagerness wandering around my system.. i guess, more or less, asking is just not my thing.. maybe i think that when people don't say something to me, it's because they don't want anybody, or me for that matter, to know about it.. or they want me to find a way to know about it, coz maybe they don't know how it break it to me or they're too shy or whatever, which i do, i find a way.. and when certain times come that i feel the need to ask something (yes those times come), i can't help believing that maybe, just maybe, i shouldn't be asking after all, and that maybe reading between the lines works better for me, which unfortunately leads me to more questions, but i can pass talking about that..
since i'm already too gutsy treading on the narrow yet long path of this topic, why don't i tell you something personal.. something that would make you know me more.. well ok, maybe just a little..
this morning, i was lounging (lounging huh?! hehe) at the school lobby, and i was having an Nsync greatest hits fever on my background, thanks to the boy-girl-band-driven people there.. (hehe peace people!) then i heard a familiar beat.. then i found myself dancing it in my head.. and in fairness i still know all the steps for the chorus part, and i don't think i'll ever forget those steps..hehe it was the song that me and my high school friends were known for coz we used to dance it back then.. hehe yeah, actually i did a lot, i really mean a lot, of dancing in high school.. mostly modern and pop, mostly Nsync actually.. hehe (this is beginning to become embarassing..hehe joke) ok i'll tell you a secret ha.. here goes the "something personal" part.. in my third year, the dance scene was booming as ever.. if it's the band scene lately, it was the modern dance scene then (that is in my school, i don't know elsewhere).. there were a bunch of dance groups, students and outsiders alike.. and aside from the group that i have (with my friends and we only dance for school affairs), i was referred by a friend who knows someone who manages some dance groups.. they lack one more member so they were sort of "scouting" for that one person who will complete the "it" group.. hehe what the? and out of a pinch of curiosity and my so so likeness to dance and to not let the friend that referred me down, i agreed to dance with them.. i attended the rehearsals and at first it was ok.. we were preparing for the upcoming event, sort of the battle of the bands counterpart, only this one of course was nothing but dancing, and this served as our erhmm.. launching.. (hehehe how can i tell you this?! shameful!) but gradually i started to realize that i was not comfortable anymore.. i mean, the dancing was ok, it was the people that i was with.. nothing's wrong with them, they were nice, it's just that we were strangers, then one day we were all dancing together as a group, and that was all there was, we just danced.. i mean, i expected that maybe along the way we all could at least be friends, you know.. but that didn't happen.. during rehearsals, we say hi, how are you and that was it.. so it occurred to me that i wanted out of there asap, i can't possibly be doing this with people that i barely know.. but since that was not possible, coz i was under some sort of a bond, i had to let the launching pass.. and i did, i joined them for the launching just for the heck of it and just to get it over with.. the following day, no, that same night, i was so out of that group.. hehe.. and what's more, i don't remember any of their names.. i vaguely remember how some look like, but nothing more.. whew! that was one hell of a story-telling.. hehe.. i don't think my high school friends know about this, and this is the type of a past that makes me thankful that people are sometimes forgetful.. hehehe.. despite that amusing dancing history though, i can't carry a step anymore.. aside from the dance moves that i flash out when i'm drunk (hehe), dancing remains as a history for me.. hehe.. can i fold into the tiniest possible piece now?
Nsync - It's Gonna Be Me Download Lyrics
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